Going Under in Marillion

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else
I'm just checking out that I've not gone under the
water or thrown on the beach like a seal ready
for slaughter
Can't you understand that the way things were planned
it never worked out so I just went crazy
I took to the drink like something say its
maybe

I ain't got no excuse to say, except it's my way
I got nothing else to say, except it's my way
it's always my way I seem to be running away so often
I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be
but it's always the same getting caught up again
in a habbit, a habbit I just can't shake off
the way it always turned out
can you understand it's the way I chose to be
everything seems so easy this way but I'm going under
fast, I'm slipping away, am I so crazy